Monday, March 05, 2007

Lies

~Ooc: Literature
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Mirror
By: ~deadlypoison695

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I want to see,
a world untouched,
un-harmed by love,
a world not cursed,
that soars above,
a world of warmth,
not cold as ice,
a world where hearts break once,
not twice.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I wish to see,
a moonlit night,
not pouring rain,
tears cried for joy,
not cried for pain,
a peaceful life,
a brand-new slate,
a world where love
can't turn to hate.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I hope to see,
a world where pain
cannot occur,
where tears don't make
my vision blur,
where happiness
can't drag me down,
and love won't try
to make me drown.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I pray to see,
a place where I
won't need to feel,
where time and life
are not so real,
a place where I
don't need to think,
where into death
I'll never sink.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I know can't be,
a world where death
is not a choice,
a place where I
can't hear her voice,
a world where cuts
don't bleed or scar,
where I can watch
life from afar,
a world where I
can hide away,
to die again
another day.

Now Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I need to see
reflect a world
unlike my own
where what is real
is never known.

From me, To you.

~Ooc: Literature
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Of Love
by ~Neko-Priestess

You have no idea how much I love you
It isn't a lie, only pure and true
It hurts when you forget me
I wish you could see
It hurts when you talk about your love for another
I only wish that I, not him, was your lover
I want to be with you, but you don't wish the same.
You don't need to worry because I'm not playing a game
When you are gone, I hurt.
If only you were mine to court.
When you are here it still hurts, because you are not mine
Even though I act on the outside that I'm fine
I wish I could hold you in my arms
And tell you of all of your charms
But I know that right is for another
and sadly, again, I'm not that lover
For the another you love
And he, I wish you wouldn't speak of
You have no idea how much I love you
And I swear it is only pure and true
I can't bear to tell you though
as it would be a low blow
If I did I believe it would ruin our friendship
If only I could both cry and get a grip
and I'd rather have you as a friend then nothing at all
And by you I shall, for you, stand still and tall.

Edmond Dantès Prisoner Number

:: Entry #34 - I know you didn't mean it ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: My head is throbbing
Music: This photograph is proof (I know you know), by: Taking Back Sunday
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Ok.

I'm chillin, don't worry. We just lost in Lyceum's PSITE quiz bee & programming competition partly because of my current state of mind, and I'm planning to regain my natural self in about a week or so. I hope. Anyways, I'm really unfocused right now. I don't want play Magic™ so, dont push. I'd really like to just study programming, and I'm kindof having thoughts about adopting LCA. Both the incoming 3rd year & the incoming 4th year did not accept the offices of the organization, leaving the incoming 2nd year (the current 1st year) as the heirs of the graduating officers. *sigh*

I hate my life right now. I guess I'll have to elaborate... =__=

We had our biggest row with my bestfriend just a few weeks ago. Here's the gist of it, and my point of view of why I did what I did. Comments would be really helpful. So. Grace and her mom had a big fight. I know, this happens at least once a week, but this time, it's a bit bigger. Her mom's jewellry were stolen, and Grace became the only suspect because.. well there's only two of them at the house. I know, her mom's a bit wrong there, but let me continue. A fight ensued, and ended up with grace's mom casting grace out of the house. 'Kung maglalayas ka, dapat before 10 [in the morning] wala ka na dito' said her mom. That's how she told me anyways. So, because of that, Grace left her home. No big deal, that happened quite a bit times already. Except that for the last year, whenever this happens she goes directly to her cuzin's place and cool off there. This time, she went to a classmate's house, telling me that her cuzin's won't help her this time (Since her mom branded her as a thief or something).

There, that's the backstory. Now, this is what happened afterwards. When Grace left her house, she asked Edwin (Of all people) to come see her. She also notified me, but I didn't have the funds to go to Binan, so she began spewing thorns at me through text messages. Some of those messages really hurt, so I went a bit ballistic and got quite angry. Meanwhile, her and Edwin (Who was in love with Grace since High School) assembled a few plans about where Grace should stay and where she can work for a while. Edwin cannot refuse her because of his 'Love' (I think. I hope.), even if what they're doing is obviously very wrong. After the day is over, Edwin phoned me at home, told me her story. I told him that what he did was one big mistake. Grace and her mom MUST make up. She should move out of her classmate's place and go back to her house, because what she's doing is really wrong. Her mom was wrong, but what she did was also wrong. And so, we planned a few contigencies to be enacted after a couple of days.

The day of the plans dawned. It was a wednesday, and I attended my Electromagnetics class and skipped all the rest. Edwin and I stopped by his house afterlunch and played for a few hours (with his XBOX360) before setting off to festival mall. Where were supposed to meet with Grace. I went well It think, considering I didn't say more than a few sarcastic words, but in the end her cousins supported her and took her in. We got her things from her classmates and took her to her cousins. At least the "Worst Case Scenario" didn't happen. (The WCS is a catch all reset button that I usualy devise as a last resort contingency. This time, my WCS is to get her mom from her work and lead her directly to where Grace is staying. That would lead to a big fight and I would be in the middle of everything.)

The next day. D-Day. I tried to explain to grace my situation, and why I can't support her decision. I told her that what she's doing is wrong, and being her bestfrind meant that I should make her realize that. I mean, where on Earth is arguing with your mom and going off to a classmates house for a few days the right thing to do? I'm sure there are other ways to prove your point. In a way, I know what Grace's mom is feeling... Anyways, back to the story: I told Grace that I'm texting her mom about her situation. Grace misunderstood. I also told her that she shouldn't rely on Edwin too much. Again, she misunderstood. Grace thought that I was telling her mom her whereabouts and that she's using Edwin (which is, in a way, true). She was really mad. She even told me that she gave her sim to this 'Kyla Lim' so that I won't be able to text or call her. Anyways, I spent a few days trying to contact her, trying to talk to her about her decisions, until she finally decided to listen.

Here's the gist of what I said. I think I'm right this time around. Oh, and I didn't write the part where I'm profusely apologizing about things. >_<

'Your mom was wrong, but what you did is also wrong. I know you're only waiting for your mom to apologize. But why won't you put yourself in your mom's shoes? I personally know how hard it is to maintain a household. Most especially when you're the breadwinner and no one else is helping you. You have all of us, your friends and your cousins to back you up when you're down and need help, but what about your mom? She's all alone, since her daughter left her. Why won't you understand?"

Anyways, we're kindof good right now. Kindof. A bit stable. Mostly because her mom told her to come home. ^^ Aside from that, I guess all is well that ends well, eh?

Whew. That was one long post. The backstory took a lot of space... I'm a really bad storyteller. This is more evidednt when I write my short stories - I always always go through a lot of revisions before the final release. Anyways, Ciao for now.
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begin 2 learn dat
1. kisses dnt
always min sumtng
2. PROMiSES cn b
BROKEN jst as
quick as dey r
made
3. sumtyms
gudbyes rili r
forever
4. use iLOVEYOU
wit xtreme
CAUTION, coz f
used n a wrong
way, sum1 wil end
up gettin HURT.
remembr dat it
shudnt b an
everyday word
either SHOULDN'T
b sed jst coz ur
XTPCTD to say it.
nd make sure u
knw nd wen 2
use it
5. 1s ur in love, it's
not dat easy 2 fall
out of love..
Gandang hapon!
" ~ Text Message from Maggie, Sent 04:51:34pm, 01/29/2007
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PS> Maybe I should've posted that as an Ooc:Literature... >_<