I N C A R N U M

Lies

2007-03-05T14:43:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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Mirror
By: ~deadlypoison695

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I want to see,
a world untouched,
un-harmed by love,
a world not cursed,
that soars above,
a world of warmth,
not cold as ice,
a world where hearts break once,
not twice.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I wish to see,
a moonlit night,
not pouring rain,
tears cried for joy,
not cried for pain,
a peaceful life,
a brand-new slate,
a world where love
can't turn to hate.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I hope to see,
a world where pain
cannot occur,
where tears don't make
my vision blur,
where happiness
can't drag me down,
and love won't try
to make me drown.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I pray to see,
a place where I
won't need to feel,
where time and life
are not so real,
a place where I
don't need to think,
where into death
I'll never sink.

Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I know can't be,
a world where death
is not a choice,
a place where I
can't hear her voice,
a world where cuts
don't bleed or scar,
where I can watch
life from afar,
a world where I
can hide away,
to die again
another day.

Now Mirror, Mirror,
lie to me
and show me what
I need to see
reflect a world
unlike my own
where what is real
is never known.

From me, To you.

2007-03-05T10:48:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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Of Love
by ~Neko-Priestess

You have no idea how much I love you
It isn't a lie, only pure and true
It hurts when you forget me
I wish you could see
It hurts when you talk about your love for another
I only wish that I, not him, was your lover
I want to be with you, but you don't wish the same.
You don't need to worry because I'm not playing a game
When you are gone, I hurt.
If only you were mine to court.
When you are here it still hurts, because you are not mine
Even though I act on the outside that I'm fine
I wish I could hold you in my arms
And tell you of all of your charms
But I know that right is for another
and sadly, again, I'm not that lover
For the another you love
And he, I wish you wouldn't speak of
You have no idea how much I love you
And I swear it is only pure and true
I can't bear to tell you though
as it would be a low blow
If I did I believe it would ruin our friendship
If only I could both cry and get a grip
and I'd rather have you as a friend then nothing at all
And by you I shall, for you, stand still and tall.

Edmond Dantès Prisoner Number

2007-03-05T08:48:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #34 - I know you didn't mean it ::
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Mood: My head is throbbing
Music: This photograph is proof (I know you know), by: Taking Back Sunday
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Ok.

I'm chillin, don't worry. We just lost in Lyceum's PSITE quiz bee & programming competition partly because of my current state of mind, and I'm planning to regain my natural self in about a week or so. I hope. Anyways, I'm really unfocused right now. I don't want play Magic™ so, dont push. I'd really like to just study programming, and I'm kindof having thoughts about adopting LCA. Both the incoming 3rd year & the incoming 4th year did not accept the offices of the organization, leaving the incoming 2nd year (the current 1st year) as the heirs of the graduating officers. *sigh*

I hate my life right now. I guess I'll have to elaborate... =__=

We had our biggest row with my bestfriend just a few weeks ago. Here's the gist of it, and my point of view of why I did what I did. Comments would be really helpful. So. Grace and her mom had a big fight. I know, this happens at least once a week, but this time, it's a bit bigger. Her mom's jewellry were stolen, and Grace became the only suspect because.. well there's only two of them at the house. I know, her mom's a bit wrong there, but let me continue. A fight ensued, and ended up with grace's mom casting grace out of the house. 'Kung maglalayas ka, dapat before 10 [in the morning] wala ka na dito' said her mom. That's how she told me anyways. So, because of that, Grace left her home. No big deal, that happened quite a bit times already. Except that for the last year, whenever this happens she goes directly to her cuzin's place and cool off there. This time, she went to a classmate's house, telling me that her cuzin's won't help her this time (Since her mom branded her as a thief or something).

There, that's the backstory. Now, this is what happened afterwards. When Grace left her house, she asked Edwin (Of all people) to come see her. She also notified me, but I didn't have the funds to go to Binan, so she began spewing thorns at me through text messages. Some of those messages really hurt, so I went a bit ballistic and got quite angry. Meanwhile, her and Edwin (Who was in love with Grace since High School) assembled a few plans about where Grace should stay and where she can work for a while. Edwin cannot refuse her because of his 'Love' (I think. I hope.), even if what they're doing is obviously very wrong. After the day is over, Edwin phoned me at home, told me her story. I told him that what he did was one big mistake. Grace and her mom MUST make up. She should move out of her classmate's place and go back to her house, because what she's doing is really wrong. Her mom was wrong, but what she did was also wrong. And so, we planned a few contigencies to be enacted after a couple of days.

The day of the plans dawned. It was a wednesday, and I attended my Electromagnetics class and skipped all the rest. Edwin and I stopped by his house afterlunch and played for a few hours (with his XBOX360) before setting off to festival mall. Where were supposed to meet with Grace. I went well It think, considering I didn't say more than a few sarcastic words, but in the end her cousins supported her and took her in. We got her things from her classmates and took her to her cousins. At least the "Worst Case Scenario" didn't happen. (The WCS is a catch all reset button that I usualy devise as a last resort contingency. This time, my WCS is to get her mom from her work and lead her directly to where Grace is staying. That would lead to a big fight and I would be in the middle of everything.)

The next day. D-Day. I tried to explain to grace my situation, and why I can't support her decision. I told her that what she's doing is wrong, and being her bestfrind meant that I should make her realize that. I mean, where on Earth is arguing with your mom and going off to a classmates house for a few days the right thing to do? I'm sure there are other ways to prove your point. In a way, I know what Grace's mom is feeling... Anyways, back to the story: I told Grace that I'm texting her mom about her situation. Grace misunderstood. I also told her that she shouldn't rely on Edwin too much. Again, she misunderstood. Grace thought that I was telling her mom her whereabouts and that she's using Edwin (which is, in a way, true). She was really mad. She even told me that she gave her sim to this 'Kyla Lim' so that I won't be able to text or call her. Anyways, I spent a few days trying to contact her, trying to talk to her about her decisions, until she finally decided to listen.

Here's the gist of what I said. I think I'm right this time around. Oh, and I didn't write the part where I'm profusely apologizing about things. >_<

'Your mom was wrong, but what you did is also wrong. I know you're only waiting for your mom to apologize. But why won't you put yourself in your mom's shoes? I personally know how hard it is to maintain a household. Most especially when you're the breadwinner and no one else is helping you. You have all of us, your friends and your cousins to back you up when you're down and need help, but what about your mom? She's all alone, since her daughter left her. Why won't you understand?"

Anyways, we're kindof good right now. Kindof. A bit stable. Mostly because her mom told her to come home. ^^ Aside from that, I guess all is well that ends well, eh?

Whew. That was one long post. The backstory took a lot of space... I'm a really bad storyteller. This is more evidednt when I write my short stories - I always always go through a lot of revisions before the final release. Anyways, Ciao for now.

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begin 2 learn dat
1. kisses dnt
always min sumtng
2. PROMiSES cn b
BROKEN jst as
quick as dey r
made
3. sumtyms
gudbyes rili r
forever
4. use iLOVEYOU
wit xtreme
CAUTION, coz f
used n a wrong
way, sum1 wil end
up gettin HURT.
remembr dat it
shudnt b an
everyday word
either SHOULDN'T
b sed jst coz ur
XTPCTD to say it.
nd make sure u
knw nd wen 2
use it
5. 1s ur in love, it's
not dat easy 2 fall
out of love..
Gandang hapon!
" ~ Text Message from Maggie, Sent 04:51:34pm, 01/29/2007
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PS> Maybe I should've posted that as an Ooc:Literature... >_<

The Number of Zeroes in an American Decillion

2007-02-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #33 - Sabbatical ::
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Mood: Gusto ko nang magpakamatay.
Music: Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off, by: Panic! at the Disco
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I just lost my bestfriend. Yup, Grace just texted. She said that I should just forget she existed, and her only reply to my explanation was "Hu u?". Because of this, I'll be taking the next (few) week(s) off. I'll have to contemplate the things I did, the things I said, today.

ToDoList:

What happened today (022107) about me & grace's fight.
Part 2 of what happened last valentines.
What happened last saturday (021807) about the TropangGaius™ Night Booze Session
My Magic: the Gathering Deck (WUR BlinkRider)
My RFOnline Character update
My PirateKingOnline Character
~Ooc: TropangGaius™ (A new segment of my blogs, due to consistent public demand)

Anyways, I won't be around for a week or so, but you'll still see me inside the campus. Please leave me alone for a while. I need to compose myself. -__- I'll try to update my blogs more regularly, and I'll definitely accomplish my ToDoList before this week ends. I hope. Anyways, Ciao for now...

PS> About MarkCovs's money...can someone inform Jeboy that I would consider it a favor if he can pay the 1k directly to mark? Also, tell Mark that i'll cough up the remaining 500 next week... Oh, and thanks.

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"Orange Chicken sa langit." ~Me.
"Orange Chicken sa langit." ~Edwin.

The Number Thirty-Two

2007-02-14T19:35:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #32 - Happy Valentines! ::
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Mood: Happy
Music: Just So You Know, by Jesse McCartney
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Valentine's Day, by: *Rimfrost

This post is made up of several posts about what happened from Feb9 to Feb15. *Sorry, I'll update later... I'm soo darn sleepy, I can't type anymore...*

Feb9, Friday - The Day Before the Big Day

The day being Friday, the weekly Friday Night Magic came to the front gates of Letran (Literally). And, normally, with it came (Almost) every TropangGaius™ peep from hiding. o_o Anyways, I didn't join the fray and instead went around asking the supposed-to-be-sure peeps about the event tommorow. Unfortunately, not even a single one of them's joining the Annual Group Date. So it isn't even a 'group' date now, just a regular one. ~_~ Very Disappointing, most especially to Austin, JM and Jonathan. I though you guys are already sure about your partners. Anyways, I can't back out now, so I decided to tell Grace 'The Truth'. Nothing changed, just the time - We're meeting a bit earlier than I planned. *sigh* All well that ends well, at the very least.

Feb10, Saturday - The Big Day

I woke up early and went to our metting place at about 9:00am. She told me the night before that I have to at Jolibee Binan on or before 10:30am, so I (fortunately) got up early and was soon on my way. I wore a peach polo & jeans. It was a normal getup for me, most epescially when malling. I got at the meeting place a bit early, so I ate a quick breakfast while waiting for Grace. But when she got there, boy, was I surprised. She was wearing a sleeveless shirt under a pink short-sleeve bolero, and a cute pink skirt. O_O Whhoaa. This is the first time I dated her in a cute skirt. Grace was absolutely gorgeous. Sooo unlike her last friendster pic. ^^; Anyways, let's get on with the show...

We got on a bus and I asked where she'd want to go. I didn't realy got the chance to survey the malls since I was hoping my berks would come with us, so I decided I'd give grace the driver's keys and tag along wherever she'd like. My worst case scenario was Mall of Asia, Powerplant Mall and Rockwell. Those three was just far too expensive, but of the three, I can at least afford to date someone at Rockwell. We ended up somewhere a bit nearer, but still one of the best spots for a date: Greenbelt.

The date started with her flaunting her dress at the adjoining Glorieta Mall. She still wore her bolero, so it was good and nice. We went straight to Glorieta's Cinema's and found out that the next showing of 'The Messenger', a canadian horror flick, was 1:40pm. It was 1:00pm, and we haven't eaten lunch yet so after I got a couple of tix, we looked for a nearby restaurant. We found this neat little old-kitchen look restaurant, and ordered a regular seafood pizza. It was peppered with a lot of shrimp, and was very tasty. So far so good, at least. Grace and I was just having fun pointing at other people. Whether they're ugly or beautiful, how she looks compared to other.. that stuff. We enjoyed the lunch immensely.

Next, the Movie. It was nice, a thriller at start, becomes lame near the end. But that's not the highlight. Alex, Grace's "Boyfriend", made a very cute "Wrong Sent" SMS. He just discovered that his consort was tested positive, and she wouldn't get an abortion. Yup, grace's boyfriend just became a father. Grace knew about the consort - it was his boyfriend's way of relieving 'body heat' since Grace is adamant about her "no touch below the belt" policy. And so, his consort got pregnant. Hahahahaha. :D Grace was very upset about this, but we contined the date while discussing her 'small problem'.

TO BE CONTINUED

The Fourth Lucky Prime

2007-02-08T11:45:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #31 - Exhausted ::
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Mood: My whole body's aching...
Music: Spoliarium, by Imago
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So, a lot things happened yesterday. Here's a quick rundown - The day before yesterday, I remembered that we're going to have our midterm examinations on Electromagnetics (A hellishly difficult subject with a very...amusing teacher) the next day. So before I went home (7:30pm is the dismissal time of my last class) I loaned Joy's notebook and have it photocopied. I also bought my own notebook where I planned to rewrite the notes. After I returned the notebook to Joy, I went home to study. Guess what?

I fell asleep.

Not only that, I was roused up by a text message from grace saying that she'll come over today. I received the message 7:30am in the morning, and the start of my Electromagnetics Exam was at 7:30am. Sh*tzu. The Chinese breed. ~_~ So, I tried my best to get to school w/o further delay and thankfully got there before exams were finished. My only review is from joy's xerox copies I tried to read during the jeepney ride from my house to school, so I got a very mediocre 85% in the exam. ~_~

But the day ain't over yet. Grace showed up. Along with Edwin. The two ain't getting along since...the incident last last last year. ~_~ So I tried to think of something that would force the two to mingle with each other. I was running out of ideas (And Grace was being a bit of a pain too) until Edwin asked me if I can accompany him to Paseo that night. Paseo, Sta. Rosa. A few kilometers from SM Sta. Rosa, where Grace is supposed to be in about 7:00pm. It's 5:30pm and I tried my best to convince Grace to let Edwin drive us to SM. Good thing Edwin brought his car along.

So, after a quick pit stop at my house (because of Grace's pictures at friendster and a CD I owed her), we were off to SM Sta. Rosa, where we (The three of us) spent a bit of time together. We ate mirienda at a coffee shop & played a bit at Tom's World, before I asked Grace's mom about the TropangGaius™ Annual Feb. Group Date. I recieved a very vague answer. But still, I think we won't have problems about that.

So, I got home sometime after 10:00pm. I was really exhausted, so I went to sleep and woke up to a text message. From grace. It seems that I forgot to give back her library & laboratory cards... ^^; Hehehe Arbor na to. Thanks Grace, and Thanks to Edwin too.

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"Wala na daw syang braces, gaius. Retainer nalang." ~ MarkCovs

The First Sphenic and Giuga Number

2007-02-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #30 - Feb 10 ::

~Ooc: Headlines

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Mood: My head is starting to ache again...

Music: Nothing

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There's this annual event of the TropangGaius™ peeps that occurs the weekend before (or, theoretically, after) the Valentine's Day since last year. This Febuary 10, it is slated to occur again: The Second Annual TropangGaius™ Group Date! For those who haven't read my other post, I'm going to bring my cute bestfriend Grace, although Ateh Beth said she'll try to be there as well. The venue is SM Southmall (Paranaque, I think), and when exactly is still in the works. I have to ask austin about the specifics.

Speaking of Austin, I really don't know who the hell he's flirting with right now. Sorry, flirting isn't normally associated with men, but I can't find an english word for "Chumichipsie". Which is'nt exactly tagalog either, but a Slang for making "Cheap" shots. Apply the thought to boys and girls, and you'd find a near accurate definition of the term. Anyway, It's kindof ankward when I'm trying to befriend a girl (Angel) while not knowing if one of my berk's interested with her. I think it's a disaster in the making, so I'm hanging back for a while and wait until Austin makes up his mind whether or not he'll make a move. ^^;

Anyway, that's all for today, Ciao!

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Btw, congrats to Juner, my Guy Bestfriend, for publishing the very first letranite-created blogsite that's blocked by Letran's own firewall. You cannot access his blogsite from anywhere inside the campus because it deemed a "Kids site" and illegal. ^^;

The Sum of ASDF

2007-02-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #29 - We Won ::
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Mood: Stable
Music: Girls With The Softest Lips Lash Out The Most Violent Words, by: Valley of Chrome
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So, two of my kaTropas have created their own blogs. Juner (My Guy Bestfriend) and Jonathan (The Resident Psychologist - more psycho than most, btw) have their own repositories of thoughts from now on, both of which are in the Links section of my blog. A friend of mine asked (through friendster) me a while ago why do I bother on keeping this small corner of the internet. "Why do you blog" he asked. You're baring yourself for the whole world to see.

The Reason: I'm unnaturally silent, and I have an adverse aversion to strangers. Very rarely would I willingly talk to people I don't know, be it shop owners, random people or sometimes even my Tropa's other Tropas. Or Tropa's Girlfriends for that matter. Girlfriend (Singular). Yes, It's a sad and cruel world. Anyways, back to topic: The Reason. Long story short: I need an outlet. There's a lot of emotions warring in my head, much more in my heart. I need a place where I can let it all out.

Welcome to I N C A R N U M, the dumpsite of my unfettered emotions. ^^;

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Btw, Belato Praxis won this day's 9:00pm CW. ^^; Yey! Congrats peeps!

Number of Convex Uniform Honeycombs

2007-01-27T09:24:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #28 - Alcohol ::
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Mood: Groggy
Music: Soap O Pera, by:Itchyworms
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I'm going to do this post shotgun-style since I need to play RF Online ASAP. It's a x3pt & x3DropRate weekend, so bear with me ^^; I'll try post again on monday most likely at my Linux Class.

First weekend after last post: Recollection from saturday morning to sunday morning. The confession and the sharing was particularly enlightening, and I enjoyed the overnight stay, most especially since I was with Joy & our classmates for an extended period of time. That doesn't happen often, and it did call for a few shots from a smuggled half-bottle of White Wine (cleverly hidden in a bottle of C2 ^^; ).

The week afterwards: Its the reckoning of Planar Chaos cards, and I'm not impressed. There are obviously powerful cards, there are a lot of crap (as usual), but I don't like it when wizards screw up the color pie like this. I mean, black wrath is good, green draw is good, red akroma is understandable, but not one, not two, but four playable counterspells across White, Black and Blue? Sh*t. >_<

Last Thursday: Intrams. A/S Soccer team ended the Eng. Department's stranglehold on the Soccer Trophy after 16 years. ^^; Yeah! Anyways, that's the only thing I remember about that...

Yesterday: College Day. (Did I spell that right?) It was a very...normal, albeit more packed, college day. A couple of comedians and a sponge cola concert afterwards, and me my berks (Tropang Gaius™) went to our house to discuss what's what. They ended up spending the night in our family area while discussing which cards to hoard and a torrent of jokes about love-interests and stuff. -___- Anyways, I need to post this now, I only have a few more hours before the x3 Pt wear off...so Ciao for now!

Mage's Dawn

2007-01-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

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I can't go to the prerelease. It's our recollection. ~_~ I really want the cards in my wishlist! T_T Here's a peek!

I WANT FOUR OF THIS!!! ~_~

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More Magic

2007-01-15T10:20:00.000+08:00

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And here I am again, fine tuning my M:tG Decklist. I scrapped my Walk the Aeons deck (I'm not sure why I tried that variant), and continued improving on Katsuhiro Mori's decklist. My playtesting is showing solid results - 22 Lands is not enough. So here's my current list:

011507 ~ PickleTron

4x Adarkar Wastes
4x Boreal Shelves (Should've been Hallowed Fountain T_T)

4x Urza's Mine

4x Urza's Powerplant

4x Urza's Tower

2x Urza's Factory (Upped the alternate wincon by 1)

1x Azorius Chancery (No Prahv, It's in the sideboard Jun. Don't Worry. ^^)

1x Vesuva (No Academy Ruins, Since I don't have Trisk)

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24 Lands

2x Teferi, Mage of Zhalfir

2x Vesuvan Shapeshifter

1x Brine Elemental (The Trisk wincon is now a bit more comple semi-stasis lockdown. It's weaker IMO, but I'll try it still.)

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5x Creatures

4x Compulsive Research

4x Remand

4x Azorius Signet

3x Dimir Signet (Prismatic Lens DOES NOT work. But I'll try Spectral Searchlight.)

3x Wrath of God (Four is overkill and clutters my first seven.)

2x Faith's Fetters (I want to squeeze one more though...)

2x Think Twice

2x Annex (I saw this on Mori's "2006 The Finals" winning decklist...)

2x Spell Burst

2x Mana Leak (I'm not sure about this slot... Mori has Tidings here...)

1x Careful Consideration

1x Mystical Teachings
1x Repeal (Utility removal)

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31 Other Spells

The sideboard's situational, but this is my deck right now. I'll try to get some Tidings next time, and squeeze a couple of Faith's fetters (Although I'd like to playtest Temporal Isolation too). Oh and Btw, here's my:

Planar Chaos Wish List!

@White -
4x Dawn Charm (1W;Instant;Common;Choose one - Prevent all combat damage that would be dealt this turn; or, regenerate target creature; or, counter target spell targeting you.) - I love 2cc Counterspells that can save my creatures and myself from lethal damage... ^^; Definitely a 4-of in my deck!
?x Voidstone Gargoyle (3WW;Creature-Gargoyle;Rare;Flying,As Voidstone Gargoyle comes into play, name a nonland card.The named card can't be played.Activated abilities of permanents with that name can't be played.Activated abilities of cards with that name that aren't in play can't be played.;3/3) - Holy Sh*zz, it's Meddling Mage + Pithing Needle! I need at least one of this in my deck!
4x Mana Tithe (W;Instant;Common;Counter target spell unless its controller pays 1) - What's better than a 2cc counterspell? a 1cc Counterspell! A timeshifted Force Spike is still a Force Spike. A powerful card, to be sure.
4x Sunlance (W;Sorcery;Common;Sunlance deals 3 damage to target nonwhite creature.) - Not sure why though... ~_~

@Blue -
?x Body Double (4U;Creature-Shapeshifter;Rare;As Body Double comes into play, you may choose a creature card in a graveyard. If you do, Body Double comes into play as a copy of that card.;0/0) - Again, I'm not sure why, but this card has potential. I'd need four in a deck though...

@Black -
4x Dash Hopes (BB;Instant;Common;When you play Dash Hopes, any player may pay 5 life. If a player does, counter Dash Hopes.Counter target spell.) - It's a lose-lose situation if you're using a Rakdos Deck ^^;
4x Damnation (2BB...Do I really have to write this? It's a freaking Wrath of God!) - Duh.

@Red -
4x Blood Knight (RR;Creature-Human Knight;Uncommon;First strike, protection from white;2/2) - Huge potential. Anything with Pro-White has HUGE potential.

@Green -
I guess I'm giving most of my Green Cards at Jun, so I don't have a wish list for it. ^^; But Magus of the Library (GG;Creature-Human Wizard;Rare;T:Add 1 to your mana pool,T:Draw a card. Play this ability only if you have exactly seven cards in hand.;1/1) is one powerful Control Card... I guess I want a playset of that...

@Multicolor & Lands
None.

I guess that's it! ^^; It's time for my next class, so Ciao!

Perfect Cube

2007-01-15T10:03:00.000+08:00

:: Entry # 27 - Not Seeing, Not Knowing ::
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Mood: Inspired
Music: AC's humming...
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A few hours have passed since my last post, and here I am at Software Engineering Lab 2 at my Linux2 Class. I have no idea what to write here yet, but unfortunately, I'm a bit inspired today. I hope dad can get my PC fixed by tonight, and I really hope I can advance my character in PH-RFOnline. I got a back-to-back passing grades in Linux2 Prelim Lecture & Laboratory exams, no biggie, but Joy still has a higher grade than me because of her quizzes and a a higher Lecture grade. ^^; I know, It's useless to compare myself to her - she doesn't have a bloody hobby (Except Noel), so I guess she spends her free time studying.

Sooo unlike me.

Anyways, I hope to see my inspiration this afternoon, and I really wish I can get some info on her. I even chanced by the library this morning, just before my Linux class, hoping to catch a glimpse, but she ain't there. Asa pa ko. That aside, It's really damn cold in our classroom. There's only seven of us here, and three ACs on full blast. I'm bloody shivering.

Oh, I almost forgot - I got my date for our annual TorpangGaius™ Group Date! Guess who? No, not the mystery girl, but my lovely bestfriend Grace! I don't want to ask my inspiration on a date (yet), mostly because she might not be who I think she is. What do I mean? Here's a cute little text message I got from Grace (Which I promptly forwarded to Aubrey ^^) -

She used 2 b so swit & evrythng.
Seemed so nice wen we're 2gether..
but sudenlt evrythng changed.
Now, do i miss her?
No..i miss hu i thought she was...

A fair warning from my bestfriend - and I will give it the consideration it deserves. ^^

Gematria of Tetragammaton

2007-01-14T18:40:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #26 - Inspired ::
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Mood: Stable
Music: Naghihintay, by:Jacob
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I saw her, and my heart skipped a beat. I saw her smile, and my heart just stopped. I thought I would never feel this way again after 'my first', but I guess she proved me wrong. *sigh* Really, the last time I felt this way was with...well, Grace. Yeah, I loved her more than just my bestfriend for a while, but she really needed someone to fill the void left by her father, so I guess I tried my best. I really loved her, to the point that I'd rather not be her boyfriend because I know I can't make her happy all by myself - she deserves someone more than just me. So I became Grace's bestfriend. But right now, I feel freaking in love to this girl...

Darn it, I don't even know her name.

I saw her last at the library, and she was with her classmates. I don't know her course, but if had to guess, she's from the A/S department. She was wearing a pink jacket, pink bag, pink glasses and pink watch. I guess she likes pink, and yes, she has glasses. ^_^ It looked really cute on her. *sigh* I guess I'll just have to go around asking people again. I hate it when I don't know something.

Anyways, my PC's busted again. The power supply broke down, and I'm using my father's laptop right now. It has a very annoying keyboard and mouse, but I guess It can't be helped... I'm still experiencing this lapse in my behavior since my last post, but I think I'm recovering. At least I submitted my assignments on AI this time. And did I mention that for the first time, I got a passing grade at P.E.? ^_^ Yeah, It was pure luck, but I'm quite happy at that quiz though. I guess that's all, I don't know when I can post here again because of my schedule, but I'll try. Until then, Ciao!

Simple is good.

2007-01-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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4 Months later - ExBF Edition
by ~LantisGaius

I miss you still
Through all this time
You left me all alone

We used to talk
We used to laugh
But now our friendships fading fast

I miss you
I care
And yes, I'll be here for you.

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This piece is a nod to ~averagejane’s poem... [link] I was suddenly inspired when I saw her work, and this is the outcome. It ain't my best work, but it's still a good piece in my opinion. I really liked her poem, I was somehow touched… Oh, and the title's a shoutout to Ne-Yo's So Sick (ExGF Edition) ^^; Hehehehe
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Be
by ~ClaudiaCassanova

Be gentle.
Be kind.
Be passionate.
Be mine.

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Simple, short, sweet and direct. The basic components of a very nice poem. Kudos to ClaudiaCassanova, for this excellent piece of poetry. =)

The Usual TCP Port for SMTP

2007-01-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #25 – What's wrong with me...? ::
~Ooc: Headlines

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Mood: Not so good.
Music: Smile at me, by: Rocksteddy
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I was a bit late this morning at my first class, and was really surprised when I found out right then that we’re having the Laboratory Prelim Exam at Linux2 after 5 minutes. Good thing our professor, Mr. Rivera, was kind enough to let us open the Linux Workstations in order to solve the problems. I got stuck at the part where I need to go down the directories because I forgot the command (It was ‘cd ..’) but aside from that, it was thoroughly easy.

Noon came, and I skipped my SPW class because…well, I don’t really know. I just stayed at Mary’s canteen for a while, and next thing I know, it’s time for my constitution class. Where I got a 73% on my prelim exams. What the fuck’s happening to me? I can’t focus on my studies, I don’t have a stable M:tG deck right now and my mind is full of crap. What the hell was I thinking when I tried out that stupid Walk the Aeons deck? It was as far from competitive as I can think of! A very mediocre pile of cards to be sure. I wonder what’s causing me erratic behavior…

A few hours went by, and my Operating Systems class came by. Here, I fully expect the MP (Machine problem) that Mr. Rivera was supposed to give. Yup, you guessed it; he rescheduled the Laboratory Prelim Exam of my OS Class, throwing my schedule off. You see, I’m supposed to meet with my bestfriend (Grace) at about 1:30pm, but since she got out of the house at about 3:00pm, I’ll just have to meet here after my OS Prelim exam...which I expect to finish quickly, maybe at 4:00pm or so. But unfortunately, Mr. Rivera postponed the exam, and went on with the lecture – meaning, I got out of the classroom sometime after 5:30pm. I didn’t get to chat with Grace for more than a few minutes, and all I did when I was with her is to try apologizing about my stupid schedule… she said she didn’t mind, but still… I’m really pissed about the events that happened. After that, I got home early and here I am now, typing…

*Sigh* I’ll try to post something here again, but I really want to sleep early, so that this day can end. So, I guess this is goodbye and good night...

A Song and A Poem

2007-01-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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This two pieces of fine literature really explains my situation right now...All the pain and tears, everything I'm trying to hide - That I'm still struggling with too much emotional baggage. I hate this feeling, and I'm desperately running away from it because it really hurts... Anyways, here's the pieces along with their authors.

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Naghihintay (Link)
By: Jacob

Kelan bang makikita ng iyong mga mata
Kelan bang maririnig sayo na tayo na

[refrain]
Huwag mo akong sisihin kung ang lungkot ng aking damdamin
Bakit di mo akong subukan suyuin…suyuin

[Chorus]
Naghihintay, kahit parang wala pag-asa
Handa na, maghintay kahit pa may’ron kang iba
Bahala na, naghihintay ako na ika’y makasama
Kahit na, naghihintay
Kahit parang wala na

Bakit ba di mo buksan ang iyong mga mata
Nang ang oras natin ay di na masayang pa

[repeat refrain]
[repeat chorus twice]

Huwag mo akong sisihin
kung biglang sumuko ang damdamin
di mo kasi ako pinapansin

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Suicide and Love doesn't mix
by: ~jazzyspazzy

Lying on the floor
Wishing I had died
Praying for those words
I should know will never come.

You'd been hurt before
But I've been hurt
(and worse)
My heart has healed
And it wants you
Something yours will never do

I see you
and I smile inside
I leave you
and I die inside

The way my heart stops beating
The way my chest starts heaving
The way I cry
"I hate my life"
The way I suddenly realize
The only way to survive
To close my eyes
Pull the trigger
Bring my life to a tragic end.

Gazing at you from above
My eyes fill with tears of love
They spill down upon your face

I wish I could be that tear
The one last time I could touch you
Instead of feeling my heart break

Searching for you at my funeral
Knowing that you won't be there
Seeing you, so far away
I wander over
Stare at you
To finally hear the words
I've always wanted you to say:
"Oh god I love you."
"Oh God I miss you"
Then I suddenly realize
The only way to survive
To turn away and say good bye
Is to think of how I had to die
For you to say you loved me.

A Self-Dual Convex Regular 4-Polytope

2007-01-07T17:56:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #24 - Wait ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Sad
Music: Naghihintay by:Jacob
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A lot of nothing happened since my last post. At school, we just waited (in vain) for our professors to show up, or when they showed up, discuss among ourselves why on earth are we doing nothing. ~_~ On the Magic side of life, more nothing. Miki no longer has debts on me, though I still owe boogie a Thelonite Hermit. Btw, If you noticed above, I'm dropping the ~Ic stuff. Yup, this blog is now solely mine. I really cannot find the time to create the story, less likely the characters for it.

I'm not myself tonight. Maybe because I woke up just this 2:00 in the afternoon, or maybe it's because of the very nostalgic background music (Naghihintay, by:Jacob), but as you can see, my writing sounds off. Maybe I should have picked another day to rewrite the header of Incarnum... Maybe I shouldn't have posted here tonight. I still haven't fully recovered from my headache last time.

Anyway, my bestfriend (Grace) texted me last night about being her audience helper or something at this local tv gameshow called 'Deal or No Deal'. I hate gameshows, and from what my mom told me about this show, we might just end up fighting in the end, so I declined. I'll be there, yes, but only as a normal audience. *_* What else...my guy bestfriend (Juner) wanted me to post something here about TropangGaius™ (Just look at my CBox), but I'm not in the mood right now. I'll just have to quote Roy on this one: 'Remand! Maybe next time..' Sorry Jun.

Hmm... I guess that's it. I'll try to post something else later, but don't count on it... ~_~ Ciao.

End Transmission Block in ASCII

2007-01-03T16:55:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #23 - Sleep ::
~Ooc: Headlines

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Mood: My head aches...
Music: chOOSe mE or Die, by:Tommy febuary6
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My head hurts. My forehead's throbbing like it's gonna burst. Just above my right eyelash. T_T Darn it. Anyways, here's a quick rundown of what's happened. I'm downloading .Hack//Roots for my little bro (He's playing the PS2 Game version of the anime), and I've purchased crappy (but full length) DVDs of R.O.D. and Basilisk, both anime's of high caliber. I just wish I can watch them sometime...

Another thing:
Yup, I'm currently playing as SaffiEriksdotter in Ph-RFOnline; a Bellato Crossclass Mystic-turned-Vigilante. I just job changed last night, and my Holy Pt's driving me nuts... 3 more to go until Expert Skills are open though... And 23 more before Elite skills open up... -__- darn it... I need sleep. Did I mention how my head hurts? It's like hell. Only more gory and stuff. Maybe it's because I spent the whole night playing RFOnline. Or maybe the alcohol I drank is finally taking its toll.

I got permission to go to "The Reunion" with my best friend, Grace. I didn't expect to see 12 gals from my high school and only me, Sam and Zoren as the lone guys. But half of them are enough eyecandy, so I decided to come along...Until I felt horribly sick. I felt damn cold since we got to the venue (Monte Vista Resort) at 7:00pm or so, and all went downhill from there. I got a bit agitated since my best started teasing me to make me go to the swimming pools (Kung I-huhug kita, swimming ka? Kung I-kikiss kita, swimming ka?). It was vexingly annoying. A few hours more, and I was left alone with Zoren and Apple, who also didn't want to swim. Only my best knew that I'm sick, but she discovered when it's 3:00am in the morning, when I started drinking beer to get some heat in my blood. I also ate a very big midnight snack at Max's, just to stave off the incoming fever. I don't want my grace's barkada going all worried over me, so I just drank a beer at a corner.

Until Zoren found out. He and Sam pushed me to buy a Gran Matador brandy from the resort (costs a whopping 160.oophp, good thing there were three of us). We expected some of the gals to take part in the drinks, but unfortunately, they'd rather immerse themselves in the hot pool. So, that left me, Sam and Zoren and a bottle-full of brandy. Oh, Apple and Amor was there too, but they only provided idle company. The discussions was nice, and the alcohol flowed like water in the slides. Fortunately, I was still myself when morning dawned. I think Sheryl is mad at me because I started the the drinking at her reunion, but that aside, it was refreshing.

Any event with me and my best friend there, and it never fails to be refreshing for me. ^^; I wish she were here though... My head is really throbbing....

Umm..what else... Christmas and New Year passed with me being really happy. I don't know why, but grace just have that effect on me. I just love being near her, chatting nonsense. Ummm... what else... I finished Robert Jordan's Knife of Dreams, the Eleventh Book of The Wheel of Time. Classes just resumed today, and our 2nd meeting in Electromagnetics ended with my head reeling like a top. I can't keep my vision steady after 3 long hours of Vector Analysis and Dot Product and Cross Products and Cramer's Rules...

My head hurts. I have a lot to do. I want to play RF. I wish can watch R.O.D and Basilisk. But enough whining. I'm happy. Believe it or not, behind this accursed headache, I really am happy.
^^; Hehehehe

Ciao, for now!

Me and my Deck

2006-12-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Magic
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It's been a while since I discussed my deck here... Anyway, here it is, a spinoff from Katsuhiro Mori's deck. Mori piloted this until the Top 8 of Worlds, but he lost in the semifinals. Ryo Ogura, on the other hand, played exactly same deck as Mori, and managed to land in the Top 2, but lost in the final game with Mihara, who piloted a Dragonstorm deck. But enough talk, here's my take on TriskeTron:

122006 ~ TriskeTron

4 Boreal Shelf
4 Adarkar Wastes
4 Urza's Mine
4 Urza's Power Plant
4 Urza's Tower
1 Urza's Factory
1 Academy Ruins
1 Prahv, Spires of Order

2 Triskelavus
2 Teferi, Mage of Zhalfir

1 Careful Consideration
2 Spell Snare
3 Faith's Fetters
3 Wrath of God
1 Mystical Teachings
4 Remand
2 Spell Burst
2 Mana Leak
2 Think Twice
3 Dimir Signet
4 Azorius Signet
4 Compulsive Research
1 Clutch of the Undercity
1 Rewind

Sideboard:
2 Spell Snare
1 Faith's Fetters
1 Wrath of God
2 Circle of Protection: Red
4 Rune Snag
1 Return to Dust
3 Annex
1 Muse Vessel

There it is. Trisketron, slightly modified from Katsuhiro Mori's list. The main differences are as follows: Obviuosly, the Sideboard is tweaked according to the metagame. Also, I pulled the following cards from Mori's list and replaced them accordingly:

-4 Hallowed Fountain ._. (Just because I don't have the funds right now...)
-1 Island
-1 Commandeer (The price of this piece rocketted to 200ea from 50ea because of Mori's list...)
-2 Tidings (I don't like sorcery speed card draw...)

+4 Boreal Shelf ._. (Hollowed Fountain Proxy)
+1 Prahv, Spires of Order (Against the aggressive metagame)
+1 Rewind (Works like a charm with Spell Burst Lockdown)
+1 Clutch of the Undercity (Transmutes for a lot of things, disables hellbent, and emergency bounce and life loss)
+1 Faith's Fetters (The metagame here's very aggressive.)

There. Criticism are very much welcome.

Fate/Stay Night

2006-12-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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"I am the bone of my sword.
Steel is my body, and fire is my blood.
I have created over a thousand blades.
Unknown to death.
Nor known to life.
Have withstood pain to create many weapons.
Yet, those hands will never hold anything.
So as I pray, "Unlimited Blade Works."

~ Archer

Secure Shell Protocol Port Number

2006-12-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #22 - Ten days pass ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Jolly?
Music: Kono Machi de wa Dare mo ga Mina Jibun Igai no Nanika ni Naritagaru, Law of Ueki OST
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I just finished watching Fate/Stay Night, and it was really great. A real must-see anime, on par with Evangelion both in storyline and graphics. *sigh* Again, ten days pass before I got up and update this blog... Maybe I should rename it since I can't seem to find the time to complete the ~Ic stuff. Anyways, here's a brief summary of what happened last week and a half.

> Freaking hard prelim exams on System Analysis & Design and Philippine Constitution.
> I tried to set-up Austin and Angel, which ended in vain. I'll discuss later...I hope.
> I realized the situation Aubrey's in right now, and I don't think I can bear to be in her place...
> Edwin flies to singapore. Oh, he's got an XBox360. T_T
> Kasambahay "Overnight Christmas Party". We ended up "malling" in waltermart (of all possible places...) since there we're barely a dozen people in the venue. We thought it would be a very sad christmas party, so we went to waltermart instead.
> Overnight at my house. Allen, Austin, Roy, Phil, Jerwin, Jm, MarkCovs, thanks for being here!
> Reunion of my highschool batch, section Leibniz at a Resort this Dec.29... It's overnight too, and I really hope I can be there... My bestfriend's (Grace) not going to forgive me if I can't make it there...

That's about it. Oh, and it's Christmas in just a few more hours, so Merry Christmas! ^_^

Weight of your soul*

2006-12-14T09:19:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #21 - Sixty ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Tired
Music: Me & U, by Cassie
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Just got a whopping 60% in Prelim Grade in P.E. ~_~ Still have acouple of exams this day, but I need to send off this ACM Article to April before noon. I haven't finished the TicTacToe and Lecomelec Election Software yet though, and I still have to review on my Theory Subjects (Systems Analysis & Design and Data Communications & Networking). Darn it, I wish PLDT can get the phonelines fixed by tonight... I want to know what happend to Emiya (Fate/Stay Night). He's the only protagonist in an Anime I know who dies twice in the first four episodes ^^; There's a lot of things I want to discuss, a lot of things I want to do (Write the ~Ic stuff, for example), but I can't because of this academic stuff. *sigh*

I kind of regret being active in the Academe last semester... ~_~ I'll try to post something later, I still have a few errands to run...

*- According to this.

My Life, My Soul, For the Phoenix.

2006-12-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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I have always played Magic:The Gathering CCG, but in terms of story, L5R just rocks my world. I really love the setting, and the writers are really superb.

Kudos to Legend of the Five Rings Writers, namely Shawn Carman, Nancy Sauer and others! :D

The Number of First Moves in Chess

2006-12-13T17:06:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #20 - Hurting ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Still grumpy...
Music: Still the ITCC's keyboards...
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Why does it hurt? I no longer care about her, I'm quite sure I have moved on. To the point that I have someone else in my heart right now... But how come it really pains me to see her and Emil walking around the campus? How come I don't feel anything when we see each other without Emil? My heart bleeds when they're around, and I don't know why. Darn it.

Guess what though? I still haven't finished the ACM Article, and PLDT still haven't got the phonelines fixed. That means I'm typing right now at the ITCC, which is really annoying. I have prelim exams on my P.E. Class and Systems Analysis & Design tommorow, which sucks. I hope I can finish this projects (The Lecomelec Software and the accursed TicTacToe Software) before friday though... Btw, Magic's Gold Rush is this saturday, but I can't attend because of Prelim Exams. I really hate my life right now...

The Fourth Alternating Factorial

2006-12-12T10:47:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #19 - I hate allergies... ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Grumpy
Music: Keyboard clicking...
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So, PLDT's having problems with their phonelines. This means that I again doesn't have internet access at home, so please bear with me for a while. I'm facing problems left and right here, and I really need to stabilize. Just look at my ToDo list! Darn it... The quintessential problem of Lecomelec Software, the A.I. Software...Who would've thought programming a simple TicTacToe would take a couple of weeks to finish? Darn it, my mind is still reeling with game states and A.I. algorithms. What else... Well, I'm currently typing up an ACM article for LCA, and I still have to review for my DataCom&Networking lab. exam later. Oh, and I still have to review for my constitution exams...

*sigh* Have mentioned I that I collapsed last P.E. class? My legs gave way after running for quite a while. I'm really not made for sports, no matter how hard try, my body just gives up after a while. What else...

I'm going to post my ACM article here later, as well as an ~Ooc:Life post and an ~Ooc:Magic post, so sit tight and see ya all later! I hope... ~_~

Shíbā in Chinese

2006-12-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #18 - I'm itchy ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: A bit grumpy
Music: Half Crazy, by: Freestyle
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April informed me sometime today that I'm one of the contestants for tomorrow's quiz bee. At 9:00am. T_T *sigh* I've no choice though, she's really kindof annoyed at me right now. I still haven't done the LCA website (which was due last August). I also downloaded the French episodes of Fate/Stay Night, an anime on the top lists of AnimeYume. It was already 25% complete when I noticed (1gb out of 4gb total), and I have to repeat the process all over again. And I still have to redownload the RF Client. Darn it, I've got lots of problems... There's still the quintessential problem of lecomelec, the election software, and a smaller 'assignment' on A.I. Did you know how hard it is to code an A.I. for a tic tac toe game? It's freaking hard. Really. Anyways, I still have to type a few things up, so sayonara, for now.

Btw, here's a trailer from Fate/Stay Night. Enjoy! :D

Magician's Jury

2006-12-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

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Just the other night, a Jun (My guy bestfriend) asked me about the competitiveness of his deck. I'll get to that later - I'd just have to post a few decklists here: One is the list of Yuuichi Miyazaki, 2006 Aichi Standard Champs, 3rd place, and the other one's the list of Kazuya Saitou, 2006 Yamagata Standard Champs, 1st place.

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Yuuichi Miyazaki
2006 Aichi Standard Champs, 3rd place

Main Deck
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1 Pendelhaven
20 Forest
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21 land

4 Birds of Paradise
4 Llanowar Elves
4 Silhana Ledgewalker
4 Scryb Ranger
4 Yavimaya Dryad
4 Spectral Force
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24 creatures

4 Call of the Herd
4 Blanchwood Armor
4 Moldervine Cloak
3 Stonewood Invocation
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15 other spells

4 Spike Feeder
3 Giant Solifuge
3 Serrated Arrows
3 Krosan Grip
2 Greater Good
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15 sideboard cards
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Kazuya Saitou
2006 Yamagata Standard Champs Winner

Main Deck
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2 Island
8 Forest
4 Breeding Pool
4 Yavimaya Coast
1 Pendelhaven
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19 land

4 Llanowar Elves
4 Birds of Paradise
4 Scryb Ranger
4 Plaxmanta
4 Ohran Viper
4 Spectral Force
3 Mystic Snake
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27 creatures

4 Call of the Herd
4 Remand
4 Mana Leak
2 Stonewood Invocation
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14 other spells

1 Mystic Snake
1 Loxodon Warhammer
3 Serrated Arrows
3 Giant Solifuge
3 Krosan Grip
4 Repeal
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15 sideboard cards
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What's the difference? Well, Kazuya's obviously the 1st placer, and Yuuichi only placed third - although it seems unfair of us to judge them this way since they're not from the same district. But still, the point remains. Single colored decks need very good pilots in order to make it to the top lists, while dual colored decks, even simple ones, can be found on the top easily. Proof? On the whole japan, how many mono colored decks have placed in Japan champs? Only one per district in the average: and only Mono-White is populous, and there's only one Mono-Green (Correct me if I'm mistaken here).

Let's take a look closer at the two lists - Both of them utilized the same primary win con - a turn 3 Spectral Force through Scryb Ranger acceleration, finishing with elephant beatdown + stonewood invocation. But Kazuya's list can be found many times through the Japan Champs - most of them placing at the top 3. How come Yuuichi's the only Mono-Green player at the top 3? Because Yuuchi's list is a dedicated aggro-beatdown deck. Meaning, it does nothing but beat you down. Kazuya, on the other hand, used some control elements such as Remand and Plaxmanta. Why? Because a dedicated aggro-beatdown dies to control. Lets take a quick run down, ok?

White:
Wrath of God
Faith's Fetters
Condemn

Blue:
Remand
Cancel
Repeal

Red:
Lightning Axe + Fiery Temper
Pyroclasm
Char

Black:
Sudden Death
Stupor
Persecute

There. The four Control Colors. It very hard to control the game using Green - because it's mainly a beatdown color. We dip to green for creature support - and to every other color for control. Now, enough background, and answer Juner's Question: Is my Mono-Green Beatdown deck competitive?

Short answer: Yes.

Long Answer: It depends. No matter the build of a green deck it will never have the capability to control the game. And herein lies its weakness - it boasts very little removal, so it relies on sheer speed. And so, luck becomes a factor.

ProPlayers very seldom rely on luck.

Thus, most players dip on other colors for control support - musch like how other decks splash green for creature support. Anyhow, I'm starting to feel sleepy, so I'll post this now. I'll probably expand on it later, but for now... Ciao. ^o^;

Women

2006-12-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Life
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'Woman' Post part I:

The hell's with women? Most don't follow conventional logic and almost every single one of them expects you to read their minds. Fun Fact: I hate women who clamps up when she's supposed to be talking. In other words, almost every girl.

Do you know why I really love my bestfriend? It's mainly because of this: when she's angry, she goes off like a freaking nuclear bomb. If we're not alone, or if we're in a public place, she goes on normally until we find some secluded spot then - BOOM!. >_< I know it sounds sadistic of me to like someone who explodes, but still. When you're angry, blow up. Please. Why? Because when people blow up, they actually say what they mean to say. I don't have to dig through perfumed shit, sort through thinly veiled taunts just to find out why the hell you're not talking to me. I don't have to say sorry, cuddle you and all, trying to pry the f*cking truth out of you. I know my ears will ring and my ego would be bruised, but I expect that. I want to know my mistakes - why you're angry, so that I won't make the same mistake again.

So, moral of the story: just freaking blow up, dammit!

Disclaimer: No, the person I'm talking about ain't you. Whoever you are. She's doesn't freaking know that this blog exists. And even if she does, she too freaking numb to care about me and feelings... T_T

'Woman' Post part II:

On another note, I asked a girl for help just last last week. I know, that's a long time, but my PC's broken. Anyhow, I found out about a little bug in my system, and I panicked. I REALLY panicked. I was sooo darn desperate for help that I somehow ended up sending a somewhat offensive message to her through friendster. I hate friendster and I hate her, but desperate times call for desperate measures. I got a few opinions out of her, and some of the lifelines I pulled produced results, but all in all, You could say that I'm currently 'in medication'. Don't pry. ~_~

Anyways, why do I hate her? My reason seems absurd right now, but before, for me, its enough to wage war on someone. Even if that person is a woman. Well, here's the gist of the story: She dumped JM, then bragged on friendster that she didn't love him. Well, not exactly bragged, but she posted that in a few of her bulletin posts. The first part (Her dumping JM), I actually approve. JM really acted immature and insensitive back then. Sorry JM. But the second part (at least back then) for me, was unforgivable.

When a girl becomes someone's girlfriend, she does so because of a reason. Love, wealth, fame, whatever. You'd usually find that out after the relationship. This is also true for us boys. JM cried his guts out when this girl dumped him. He desreved it. Sorry JM. But while one of my berks was experiencing grief, this girl was off at friendster, telling everyone that she didn't really love him. It makes on wonder: Why then, did she became her girlfriend? Love is crossed out. What other reasons can there be? Whatever that reason is, it not enough to cross one of my ka-tropa.

And so, I waged war. And I'm not sure, but I think I lost - since I no longer believe in my cause.

Anyways, that's done. :D Good luck to us. That was one convoluted post eh? I'm not sure what the hell up with the whole 'Woman' Post part II thingy, but that's that - Ciao. *sneaks off to write another post*

The Most Random Number

2006-12-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #17 - More bull, less sh*t ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Happy...kind of...sort of...
Music: Hindi ko kaya, by: Josh Santana
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One my hard drives crashed. The 200GB one, along with everything I downloaded for the last year and a half. I keep system & important files on my other drive (Only 40GB) and keep everything 'volatile' such as download files and pirated* games on the other drive. It's very uncharacteristic of me not to go ballistic over the amount of erased data, but yes - I'm calm and focused. There's a lot shitty things happening around me, and I think I'm numbed out. I'll elaborate later. Really. I'm writing bits and pieces right now... ~_~ *sigh*

Btw, I'm kindof broke. Aside from the crappy things happening, I'm also having financial problems. Which is crappy. Some good news though - my mom brought me Robert Jordan's Knife of Dreams softbound novel, which is really great. I guess I'm starting to recover from my unlucky streak...

Anyways, I don't have any music in my drive right now, so I searched the net for something streaming, like an online radio or something. I remembered seeing one of those in Kalibog Forums, and guess what? I like their playlist. Here's a link. Just click on the OPM Jukebox for streaming goodness. Other than that, I guess I'm going to start typing... ~_~

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* - I do not condone pirated goods.

PS> Hi Jun. ^^; Hehehehe

A Centered Pentagonal Number

2006-11-27T15:57:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #16 - Bullshit ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Calm... for now... -_-
Music: Silence
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I hate my room right now. It's hot and stufy and the bed is hard. My PC ain't working, my Cellphone is broken, and my Magic:The Gathering Deck (And binders) are all broken. I'm starting to doubt my sanity here... because the last time this happened, it was also december. Find it in my other blogs. Again, it seems that my life is being sabotaged - I find it hard to believe in coincedences when a lot of bad things happen in the space of a single week. I also heard a small rumor about Aubrey and Emil... and I find it very bitter even if I don't give a damn about her right now. Ok, so things about her is still affecting me, but still. Darn it. I officially hate the events transpiring around me right now...

I guess I'll have "to live in interesting times", just like a Lion... Although I'm a freaking pacifist Phoenix... Maybe I'm becoming like Shiba Jouta... or maybe not.

I hate Emil. That much is certain. But I'm not angry at him. I'm angry at her... If only she didn't decide to say 'Yes' quickly and allowed Emil to court her like a civilized and conservative person I thought she was, then at least I might have had a chance, yes? Darn it. But that's all in the past now. She's officially 'his' now. Body and mind. Getz? I hate this.

Darn it. I can't post here consistently, if you hadn't noticed, because my PC's broken. Really broken. Spell "Hardware failure". *sigh* I'll post a few things next time.. I hope soon, but I can't promise anything.

Ciao for now. -_-

The Number of Supersingular Primes

2006-11-05T16:59:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #15 - At long last ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Dead
Music: Dead! By: My Chemical Romance, The Black Parade
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The upgrade's almost finished, and only the games are left to reinstall. I just finished watching Bleach Ep1 on YouTube, and I'm sorely tempted to download the whole Bleach Anime to my pc... I'm also gilmore-depraved right now, and I want to start downloading Neverwinter Nights 2. *sigh* so many things to do... Oh. I just remembered the Lecomelec Software revamp... darn it... I'll get to it later, after I write a few bits and pieces about what's happened last few weeks.. ~_~

See all of ya in a bit...

The First Even Nontotient

2006-11-04T18:41:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #14 - Sh*t happens ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Sh*tty
Music: None installed yet...
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After the ACM Competition, I found out that most my desktop PC's softwares have crashed for some unknown reason. So, logically, I backed up what can be saved (Using almost 20x DVD-Rs) and made a Format Checklist. I didn't expect the format to consume much time - 6 or so hours passed while the PC were formatting my 200Gb HD. After that, I encountered a few slight errors with my wireless modem (I sorely needed Internet connection in order to continue my checklist) which led to the dismantling and checking the Wireless Modem PCI card inside my PC. I found out that it was partially disconnected, so I replugged it in and everything was going fine... Until I installed Microsoft Visual Studio 2005. All hell broke loose, most of my programs went haywire (Looking for DLLs which is right beside them and some such...) so I recheck my software configurations. After a few hours, I'm right here backing up again. I'm going to reformat again, and I sorely want to punch someone in the face. Preferebly Tj. I have a few additional posts to write, but I doubt I can do them until tommorow evening. Until then, wish me luck!

More of what's coming up:
~Ooc: Life (De ja vu)
~Ooc: Life (Autism)
~Ooc: Academics (Compcard)

That's that folks. See ya all later...

Number of Nodes in Metatron's Cube

2006-10-29T12:01:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #13 - Still so busy... ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Music: Sexy Love By: Ne-Yo ft. Ms. Candace Jones
Mood: Terrible
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Darned. It's already sembreak and I'm still so busy. I'll elaborate later, on seperate posts, since my mom's pestering me again. What's up? Hell's up. And I'm not so sure where's down either... I feel like I drank ten shots of Vodka last night...

Anyways, What's coming up:
~Ooc: Academics (ACM and whatnot)
~Ooc: Joy (Long delayed, and thus many many updates to Joy Blog)
~Ooc: Tech (More Gilmore)
~Ooc: Tech (Jigoku Shoujo)
~Ooc: Tech (Review of Office2007)
~Ooc: Magic (Latest decklists)

Btw, since many people are asking: ~Ooc means out-of-character, while ~Ic means in-character. I'm refering to the Incarnum stuff I keep pushing up my schedule. When I'm writing about Incarnum it's normally on ~Ic. When I get to it. ~_~ Oh, and did you notice? New template! But this is just temporary though, I'm looking for something more... futuristic. I still have to fix the LECOMELEC Software and clean up the LCA Website mess, as well as submit my final project on World Literature (Yes, If don't get that project done by tommorow, I'm toast.) ~_~ Good luck to me...

Jupiter's Lysithea

2006-10-24T09:52:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #12 - Seven Days pass... ::

~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Kinda Confused
Music: Smooth Criminal, by: Alien Ant Farm
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My head is still ringing from everything...I have to concentrate on my ACM training though, so no time to go all confused... Darned. I hate Eclipse, I hate Java, I hate ACM, I hate them all. My head is still ringing from everything that happened since the training started. So, I managed to pass everything but World Literature's Blue Book. I'm kinda worried that I'm getting a failing mark there, but I need to prioritize before I worry. First things first: ACM. The International Competition is due this Friday, and we still have long ways to go in order to get a win. Raffy and Me forms quite a mean team (In terms of Algorithms), but we need a coder. Juner can't do that, he's quite a newbie in terms of Java. His first Java app was a simple date reformat program. Joy didn't finish hers, but still, she can keep up.

After that...Well, Juner found out that his deck isn't really competative. 4x Ohran Viper + 4x Call of the Herd would really toughen it up, as well cost him a huge sum of money. I'll post more things later, I need to wrap up my long overdue LCA website. ~_~

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One of My Personal Favorite Numbers...

2006-10-17T15:29:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #11 - More Hell ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Music: Doo bidoo by:Kamikazee
Mood: A bit tired, but I'm good.
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Hahahaha. I just found out yesterday! I really am over her! I stayed with her and Emil inside the Kasambahay, and I didn't feel anything terrible! I was a bit disgusted about Aubrey and Emil's 'lovetalk', but still, I'm good! I really am! Heheheh

Anyways, I have a Joy Blog post to write a bit later. I expect to be able to install the Microsoft Visual Studio 2005 this afternoon, and I'm really looking forward to continuing Jigoku Shoujo... As Enma have said:

"
O miserable shadow clad in darkness!
Hurting and disdaining people,
a karmic soul drowning in sin...
Would you try dying for once?
"
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Desperate

2006-10-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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Desperate
By: ~LantisGaius (101206)

How does love feel?
What does it mean...
Why do we love?
Is there a reason?

I lived for a while
and I will die in a bit -
I have journeyed far
just to feel this 'Love'

Why does people look for it?
To also sate their curiosity?
To be able to understand?
Or to be understood?

I thought I saw Love
Just a glimpse, Just a peek
I marvelled at her beauty
but is this true love?

How do you know,
How would you compare -
Is this feeling truly 'Love',
or is it just purely lust?

They say to 'Love' is to be happy
that Love is right
but why do I doubt?
but why does it hurt?

Is love real?
Is it just a figment of imagination?
a haven for dreamers,
just a glimmer of hope?

Yes, I am desperate
for I feel I'm being left out
How can everyone talk about love?
Why is it, can I not relate?

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Prove to me that love exists. ~ Me

Time Spiral

2006-10-15T20:49:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Magic
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*WARNING: Major Time Spiral Spoilers ahead!*

So, Umezawa (From Kamigawa Block) is the cause why Nicol Bolas (An Elder Dragon who's also one of the most powerful and oldest Planeswalker) was trapped at the Talon Gates without a body. He's effectively haunting the site. Remember the Haunt mechaninc from Ravnica block? Oh, and Karn was also mentioned near the end of the book. And also, Teferi of Zhalfir, just lost his spark. Yes, he's no longer a planeswalker. Planar Chaos is the next set's name, to be released at january '08. I think a certain Jitte might make it there... ~_~ Darn. It's like Betrayers of Kamigawa all over again...

Btw, I brought a Fat Pack (1,600 pesos worth of crap). That's where I got the Time Spiral Novel by Scott McGough, and I think it's not exactly a prime piece of literature. The narrative was long winded and boring, too much description and telling, not enough showing. Anyway, I kinda hate how he wrote it. The contents of the 6 boosters contained within? Nothing good. Here's the rares:

1x Restore Balance
1x Living End
1x Evangelize
1x Spectral Force
1x Flagstones of Trokair
1x Swarmyard
1x Soltari Priest
1x Avoid Fate
1x Honorable Passage
1x Nicol Bolas
1x Ovinomancer
1x Moorish Cavalry

That's that. Pile of crap... ~_~ Btw, I'll post my decklist here later, with a full 5 game review. ^^;

Joy Blog #01 to #05

2006-10-15T18:01:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Joy
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Joy Blog #01
[Sent: 08-Oct-06; 12:20 am]
[Recieved: 08-Oct-06; 12:24 am]

Jst fnshd wtching Troy.. Grbe gnda! Hehe.. Luv k n c Hector! Npkl0yal nya 2 his wife.. But then Achilles w0n p rn.. So sad c Orlando Bloom ang ntra z npty nya c Brad Pitt.. Nkkl0ka ang arw n itech.. Kng bkt? Scret! Hehe.. At lst mkkphnga n dn me.. Tmrrw dmi k ggwn so kelngn k lub0s lubusn ang phnga ds nyt.. Nyt evryne! D po k n wrng snd.. Ndmay k lng z nkgrup txt me e.. Hehe..

Joy Blog #02
[Sent: 09-Oct-06; 10:01 pm]
[Recieved: 09-Oct-06; 10:06 pm]

H0w swit! M0m br0uth me a glass of clmansi juice.. Sna nman gmlng n k.. Cnt fnsh my skul w0rks.. Hay.. M crrently wtchng odyssey.. Sna mtp0s n z gs2 k n mgrst.. Hve 2 fnsh my dtbse tmrrw mrning.. Hehe.. Nytnyt evryone!

Joy Blog #03
[Sent: 10-Oct-06; 11:44 pm]
[Recieved: 10-Oct-06; 11:48 pm]

Kmsta nman.. M b0ut 2 sleep p lng.. Kktp0s k lng gmwa ng thesis pr0posl.. I 4g0t n0t 2 wsh my fce.. 4 sure mppasma n nman eyes k.. anywy mdjo mglng n k.. Sna bks ok n ok n so dat i cn buy mcfl0at n ult,hehehe.. M still n0t preprd 4 our rep0rt tmrrw.. Hay.. Sumtyms i cnsdr myslf as 'babaeng wlng phnga'.. Wel, d truth is it's me who cmplic8 my lyf! Bt i cnt b wapakels ol d tym.. Klngn k mgexst s earth.. Hehe.. Nytnyt evryone!

Joy Blog #04
[Sent: 13-Oct-06; 11:02 pm]
[Recieved: 13-Oct-06; 11:06 pm]

Still cnt find d exct wrds wth wat i fil ab0ut wat hppnd knina.. Dstiny.. Hay.. Bsta un n un! 2 gel, v0n voyage! She, gud luck po! Uary, glng m mgprinig id0l! Pj, sna ntp0s m n ang tr0y at odyssey.. Nkkl0ka ang mmk... Aga pa psk k bks.. Wawa nman me, wla me sem break, huhuhu! Gud nyt evryne!

Joy Blog #05
[Sent: 14-Oct-06; 7:52 pm]
[Recieved: 14-Oct-06; 7:56 pm]

Its bin 9 days n yet d p rn me fully rcvrd frm my sckness.. Rest ws n0t my vcblary 4 d past 2wks.. I heard dat i wil hve my vctn aftr oct 27.. Hay.. My vctn plan ws ruined.. Evn my rltnshp wth 'him' ws n0t g0ing so wel.. Ryt n0w wer arguing ovr sme thngs..Do i really dsrve dis? Gudnyt evryone!

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All that is written above is in Verbatim, as Joy herself has sent me the messages... ^^;

The Smallest Noncototient

2006-10-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #10 - Jigoku Shoujo ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Music: I'm not okay, By: My Chemical Romance
Mood: I'm not okay
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Right now, I'm writing a lot of things. The journals I listed a couple of posts back, the ~Ic stuff and some tasks and contacts at MSOutlook'07. There's also a lot of Academic things I need to do, namely the SPL take-home exams, the CoArch Document and Presentations and the World Literature Blue Book. Oh, and I also have a Lecture Exam tommorow on Digital Electronics, a Digital Schema to pass and lots of people to talk to. Aubrey, Emil, Joy, Justine, April... Darn it. Oh, and the LECOMELEC Software needs to be revamped too. The system's too unstable, and there's too much spaghetti code I don't even reconize it. Btw, I'm going to Ateneo-Manila in order to attend at an International Programming Competition with Juner Hart Legion and Raffy Cardeno. And I need to pass an assigment at Advanced Mathematics and a report at Instruction-Level Paralellism at CoArch this tuesday.

*sigh*

Jigoku Shoujo. ~_~

The Recurring Number at the Feynman Point

2006-10-14T09:38:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #9 - Happy Birthday Mommy! ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Music: The A/C Unit's hum
Mood: Kinda happy...
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So, good morning to all, and a very happy birthday to my mom. ~_~ Ok, my head kinda aches, and I'm sitting at the middle of the ACM Training Session at the ITCC. I hate the space bar here, really. And the computers doesn't work normally.

*A few hours passed, a few Magic games afterwards... *

Ok, that's done. I need to go home, since it's my mom's birthday. It would'nt serve me well if I got there late. There's something about Noel though, Joy's Boyfriend and one of my old friends. I think he's angry at me. I'm am starting to try and befriend Joy a bit since bad blood is quite thick between us since last semester, and I kinda felt guilty about my agendas. I think I need to talk to both of them. And to Aubrey, Emil and Justine. Oh, and April too. Darn. I'll explain why later. Maybe tommorow. Ciao!

The Number of Thurston Model Geometries

2006-10-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #8 - Friday the 13th ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Music: Me and You, by: Cassie
Mood: Still Empty
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My Filipino mock-Thesis Defense sucked. I kept staring at my teacher when she asks a question because it takes a few seconds for my mind to process her language (It was in tagalog, the native language) and to construct a sensible and tagalog answer. At least the Pascal Reporting at SPL (Prof. Vincent Rivera) was quite successful. I almost thought we wouldn't be able to finish that darn report... ~_~ What else... Oh. Crap. Here's a "Table of Contents" of what I'm planning to write here:

~Ooc: Joy (Yup, a new label. Guess why? ^^)
~Ooc: Magic (About my Fat Pack, and my new Decklist)
~Ooc: Literature (A new self-composed freeform poem)
~Ooc: Literature (About McGough's rendition of Time Spiral)
~Ooc: Tech (The Honey & Clover Review)
~Ooc: Tech (Gunslinger Girl Review)
~Ooc: Tech (Microsoft Office 2007 Beta 2)
~Ooc: Tech (My website ^^)
~Ooc: Life (Something I saw from friendster... [Link])
~Ooc: Life (Another one from friendster... [Link])

There. Lots of things to write. Unfortunately, I feel really sleepy after watching 13 full episodes of Gunslinger Girl nonstop since 2:00pm up 10:30pm, so I'm gonna sleep. ~_~ See ya tommorow. Heheheheh
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"Triela!" ~ Henrietta, Gunslinger Girl

The Smallest Happy Number

2006-10-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #7 - Website ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Peaceful
Music: None. Silence.
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So, guess what? The website competition I told you last post? Well, I kinda won. Yes, my supremely bland website won the freaking competition. I'll post screenshot later. Anyways, I'm really cramming here. I need to finish my Filipino mock-Thesis Tommorow, and the SPL report is also due tommorow. I also need to work on the Lecomelec Software. Darn it, so many things to do, so little time. *sigh*

What now? I'm kinda tired and sleepy... ~_~ There's nothing else to say. Nothing in my mind, nothing in my heart... I'm kinda dead right now....

The First Perfect Number

2006-10-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #6 - More Happy Birthdays ::

~Ooc: Headlines

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Mood: My head aches...

Music: Beer by: Itchyworms!

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So, a lot more birthdays happened today, Joy's and Mattet's. Nope, I don't care about the guy's birthdays, only female are mentioned in this blog. btw:

Well, guess why? I'm still groggy after yesterday (I only slept one hour, skipping my first subject) because of the freaking Filipino mock-Thesis. I hate the Internet Technology Lab's keyboard. The space doesn't function well. Also, the LECOMELEC is making my life hard. I just quit but I'd still have to submit a working election program. More problems. I know, I wrote happy birthday on the title, but I'm not happy. Well, I guess my all of my happiness went with my last Happy Birthday greeting (To my beloved bestfriend). *sigh* I'm tired. I wanna go home, but I still another subject to go to. Stupid lit. ~_~

Reminisce

2006-10-03T17:14:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Life
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Last September 10, two days before my birthday, I dated Ms. Birthday Girl (My Bestfriend (Grace)) on Alabang Town Center. It was very fun, and although it bordered on disastrous, we really enjoyed it. Let me recount the tale:

I overslept. I woke up 10:00am, and I'm supposed to meet Grace at 12:30. On Binan. Quite a lot of miles away. So, I got out of the house sometime after 11:30, and told my best that I would be late. It didn't sit well with her, but what can she do? ^^ First mistake: I didn't realize that the Jeepney (PUJ) I was on didn't have any 'Highway' signboards up. Meaning, I went through the city propers of Cabuyao and Sta. Rosa before going though the City proper of Binan. Which is a short walk away from where were supposed to meet.

Anyhow, I met up with best sometime after 1:00. We got on an FX, and half an hour later, we stood on Alabang Town Center. Second Mistake: Check the Movie Schedules BEFORE the date. Nothing was showing. At least nothing good. Nothing that interest me nor Grace. Oh, and Third Mistake: Emphasize that since the date's after lunch, you need to have eaten some lunch before the date. Grace ate a late breakfast, but still, she hasn't eaten a proper lunch, so I took her to eat somewhere.

Did you know how expensive it was to dine at Friday's? I asked her where she'd eat and she turned around and there it was, so we went in. A few minutes later (After a glimpse of their menu...) we went out. It was freaking embarassing, but we laughed it off. We ended up eating a clubhouse sandwich and a sansrival at Gerry's downstairs. We order unknown drinks only to find that it was laced with alcohol. LOTS of alcohol. Just perfect. We then started talking about our lives...about her and lee breaking up, about me and aubrey and my stupidity. Lots of refreshing little things. It was a nice change of pace. Soon, It's 5:00pm. So, we went off to the next mall! ^^

At Festival Mall, I checked the Magic stores to see what's up, before we settled on the cute little coffee shop at the food court. Another hour passed while we chatted, and then it was time to leave. The trip back home was uneventful, and I bought her a Toblerone as a parting gift.

The date has many flaws, but for us it was near perfect. *sigh* Happy birthday, Bestfriend!

Simple Words Explain So Much

2006-10-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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Its only
You
On my lips
Not her.

Its only
You
In my mind
Not her

Its only
You
In my heart
Not her

Its only
You
For me
Not her.

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Deja Vu.

A Purpose-Driven Life

2006-10-03T16:06:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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I'm currently reading Rick Warren's A Purpose-driven Life. I thought it was a self-help book, and boy was I surprised. It was very very theological. It makes me question my long standing beliefs (Here and Here). Its a really great book, and the writing are so well done, Its refreshing. I highly recommend this book to everyone who's spiritually deprived and lost in life. That ryhmes. I also recommend it to my close friend Edwin, but I don't know how to give it to him.

He's becoming an aethist. I wonder I spelled that right. But anyway, my friend Edwin's on a False Path. I wish I can help, but I can't. He's really tight-lipped about personal matters. Just look at his writings here. I know, they're wonderful pieces of literature, but the message is quite true.

*sigh* I hate it when I know the problem but can't do anything about it...
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That's a lot of links. Very Emo post too. And I just love BoA's Long Time No See. ^^ Happy Birthday Bestfriend!

The first Wilson and Safe Prime

2006-10-03T09:48:00.001+08:00

:: Entry #5 - Bestfriend's Birthday ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Happy!
Music: Long Time No See by: BoA
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Happy Happy Happy Birthday, Bestfriend! Today is the day my cute beautiful little bestfriend came to the world, and I'm eternally thankful for it. My only hope is for her wishes to come true faster! ^_^ Happy birthday, Best! Hehehe

Anyways, Back to buisness. Still lots of things to do, most of the things I mentioned last time is still on the works... And there's classes tommorow. I don't know if that's good or bad, but I need a few things ready before tommorow. I love BoA's Long Time No See. I really like her voice there. And my Incarnum ~Ic Stuff needs to be done. I'll be back in a bit, I need to finish my Filipino mock-Thesis. ~_~

Oh, and Happy 19th Birthday Bestfriend Mary Grace De Guia! ^^

Decklists galore...

2006-10-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Magic
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My Black/White Rebirth is quite a powerful deck, so powerful in fact that I think it has a higher chance of winning tourneys than my soon-to-be Thallid Deck. Anyways, I'm posting both decklists here, though I'm seriously doubting that I'm gonna continue the Thallid.dec

//Rebirth.dec

//Lands (21x)
11x Snow-covered Plains
6x Snow-covered Swamps
4x Mouth of Ronom

//Creatures (13x)
4x Adarkar Valkyrie
4x Martyr of Sands
3x Children of Korlis
2x Walking Archive

//Spells(26x)
4x Proclamation of Rebirth
4x Faith's Fetters
4x Condemn
4x Mortify
4x Castigate
3x Grim Harvest
2x Sunscour
1x Sacred Mesa

There. The finished Rebirth.dec, although I'm really feeling he lack of sunscours (Or Wrath effects). I think I'll swap the 4x Faith's Fetters for 2x Sunscour and 2x Angel's Grace and swap a Children of Korlis for a Sacred Mesa before calling it a finished product. Oh, and also a couple of swamps for a couple of Snow B/U Tap lands, just in case I need to pump my Walking Archives... Darn it, It look quite powerful with those rare cards... Anyways, Here's the other deck, the projected Thallid.dec, although I really feel the lack of Wrath effects so I'm reconsidering if the deck's worth it's weight.

//Thallid.dec

//Lands(22x)
11x Forest
10x Swamp
1x Pendellhaven

//Creatures(20x)
4x Thallid
4x Deathspore Thallid
4x Thallid Shell-dweller
4x Sporesower Thallid
3x Thelon of Havenwood
1x Savage Thallid

//Spells(18x)
4x Sprout
4x Sudden Death
4x Putrefy
2x Fallen Ideal
2x Verdant Embrace
2x Shielding Plax

There. I've got a Thelon of Havenwood and the Set of Putrefys right now, so all I need are a couple of Preconstructed Decks straight from the stores and it's done! Simple and easy. Darn it, I wish Black or Green has Mass removal of some kind, cuz Silhanna Ledgewalker and Giant Solifuge would own this deck quickly and easily (Not to mention Simic Sky Swallower). *sigh* I wonder what kind of deck's gonna be on the Tier 1 post-Time Spiral...

The first Positive Non-Fibonacci Number

2006-10-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #4 - Milenyo ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: I'm not sure...
Music: 伝説の草原 by: Chemistry
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Two straight days without electricity. *sigh* I thought I'd finish James Clavell's Shogun before I'd get to a live computer terminal... Anyways, the storm went and passed, our feathers were ruffled a bit but like any Filipino, we'd rebuild and carry on. Darn it, that storm knocked off powerlines for a couple of days. So, what the hell's up? A lot of things to do.

First is my Filipino Thesis. I can write the thesis tonight and be done with it monday, but unfortunately I need to do it in freaking tagalog. Darn it, It'll take me a lot of time to finish the darn thing, but I think I'll manage. Next up is my Pascal Report due on wednesday, then the quintessential LCA Website that I keep on forgetting to pass. Lots of things academic, since my social things have gone and past. I'll post my current and later deck on Magic CCG later, then resume on my Incarnum things in a bit. But right now, I need to get a few things in line... *sigh*

Oh, I almost forgot, the Software Expo (In which I submitted a really bland CSS-based Website about chinese astrology...) is supposed to be held last thursday and friday. Right above the freaking hurricane and black out. I suppose its been postponed, so wish my bland websites good luck!
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The first Fermat, Mersenne and Lucky Prime.

2006-09-26T10:34:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #3 - Vigil ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Happy. Not sure why, but still...
Music: None. I like peace and quiet.
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And so, after a whole week, I finnaly decide to sit and write something. It has been a very frantic week. First things first: I'm over Aubrey. Don't know why or how, but I don't think I like her anymore. Anyhow, what kept me from sitting in front of the computer and typing? Well, It's the freaking final term already.That aside, this means that I've lots of things to say.

The Vigil was a bit uneventful. Well, Our Lady of the La Naval de Manila came to the school just last thursday (Sept. 21), so I went and did an overnight vigil. I knew that Aubrey won't be there (Her parents won't let her) so, I thought what the hell. There lots of things I need to thank for (Aubrey finding the right man for her, Ate Beth finally landing a job, my Midterm Grades not as bad as I thought...) so I went prayed a lot of rosaries. After 12:00mn, I decided to go join my friend Miko at the student center with the Koinonia de Letran though I'm really with the Kasambahay (The Campus Ministry). We talked, I got to sleep for an hour or so, but on 6:00am I went home to change into the NCAA TShirt that we were required to wear for the NCAA Opening.

Next day... or rather, after an hour, The La Naval went away in a stream of loud fireworks. I hate fireworks. I scares the beejezzles out of me. Anyways, I didn't attend any of my Friday classes because of lack of sleep. Yup, still lazy as a bear. The NCAA Opening was impressive though, I watched a part of it and though there wasn't a single cheerleader that caught my eye, the stunts was fun to watch anyway.

What else... Ah, yes, Last sunday (Sept. 24) was the Prerelease tourney at SM Southmall. It was a fun tourney, and I got Thelon of Havenwood, so I guess it's a worthwhile evening. Juner got almost all of his cards though, so the trip was very successful.

I guess that's it...I'll post later if I remember anything else...In the mean time, I need to go dress up for school...
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"Flying men? Sinong may Flying men?" ~ A random tourney guy. ^^;

Juner & Miki

2006-09-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Life
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No, Miki didn't turn gay and Juner didn't break up with Matet. Although it almost happened... So, why the hell are these two peeps on my blogs? Because they're now officialy Susô! Heheheheh

What does that mean? Well, they're among my berks now, you know my most trusted circle of friends. Juner is my Bestfriend, so all that was needed was some time off with my other berks, but Miki... is another story. We're kinda giving each other the cold shoulder since 4th year high because of (Guess what?) a girl. I'm not sure if Miki actually like Grace (My Girl Bestfriend) or whatever, but he's cold to me when we're with her and he doesn't bother to talk when we're not, so I assumed the worst. Anyhow, we're cool now. I'm not sure why, but we're cool.

Next, I decided to "Read the Runes" again for a day. It's one of the things I actually became famous for back in high school - I can actually read fortunes. Real fortunes. Wierd huh? But still, according to those I have spoken to, every single one of my readings became true. Really wierd. But I'm straying from the topic... So, I decided to read runes again for a day. And unfortunately, Matet and Juner are one of my few 'clients' that day. The runes said disaster.

The runes were right.

I hoped that, even just once, let the runes be false. Unfortunately, fate doesn't want them to be false. So, hell broke loose. I don't want to elaborate here (Juner might not want the world to know...), but all I can say is that I won't be near the Runes again for a while...
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Honey and Clover

2006-09-20T02:54:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Tech
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So, I'm downloading this cute little series called "Honey and Clover" since Jonathan siad it was nice. There's no bloodshed or anything, but I knda need little of those this days anyways, so it's alright. What's it about?

I have no idea.

There was this guy who likes a cute little girl (Who kinda looks like a 12 yr. old...) and he can't get his feelings out. Rinse and repeat the above sentence again for the next guy, but replace the 'cute little girl' with a 'workaholic superior'. Then there's this guy who's really wierd, but he cares much for the first guy and the cute girl. I should start remebering their names... anyways, I've only seen 3 episodes, so I'll give a review after I finish the series... btw, there's already a Honey And Clover II, so I guess I'll be getting that one too...

'Honey & Clover' download finished as of the publishing of this post: 58.0% (9 / 24 Files 100%)

Start of all but one of Znám's problems...

2006-09-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

:: Entry #2 - A storm in my life? ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: My head kinda aches...
Music: Honey and Clover's ending song
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A storm rumbles outside, yet still another storm rages inside me. Darn it. Lots of things to do, but so little time left... There's still LCA website to finish and my Filipino 'Thesis writing in filipino' thingie... darn it, I'm really tired and I really wish to sleep. This is my second night in a row go on without sleeping. Anyways, there's the Time Spiral Prerelease this september 24 at SM Southmall, but I'm not sure yet if I'm gonna attend. I would really like to, but unfortunately, I've hit a huge freaking bump: Money problems. I didn't save money for the prerelease since I'm expecting some money this week, but unfortunately, the money has about only 40% chance of appearing, which means I'm in a bit of a bind...

Darn it. Lots of problems, so little time...

Procrastination Sucks.

2006-09-18T16:12:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Literature
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So, I wrote all about it. Me, and Aubrey and my feelings and all. I compiled it all in a simplistic short story. Comment on it, okay?

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/39040873/

Btw, here's the description:

Procrastination Hurts. by ~LantisGaius

What? I'm just saying it hurts. I waited for too long, and now I fear I've lost her forever. *sigh*

I hate this. Right now, my head is beating me around shouting 'TORPE KA KASI!'. I'm not 'torpe'. At least not before I met her. I became really afraid that I might lose her friendship when I try to court her. She's not exactly looking for a boyfriend. *sigh*

I'm not proud of what happened, but as they say: "Learn from the mistakes of others, coz you won't live long enough to make all of them." Oh, and Paz Marquez Benitez' Dead Stars is also a good read. Too good in fact, that in hindsight, even looked prophetic provided the things that happened to me recently. T_T

~LantisGaius (SerpentAndCross.BlogSpot.Com)

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Gilmore Girls

2006-09-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Tech
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So, I downloaded the whole season 6 of Gilmore Girls. All four-point-something gigabytes of it. Only to find out that I have already view every single episode of it on channel 23. I really hated channel 23 since the Gilmore Girls series suddenly restarted back to season 5 after 22 episodes of season 6. I should've checked how many episodes are in seaspon 6 before downloading the whole season 6 pack... *sigh* what a huge waste of time and memory...

Anyways, I love Gilmore Girls. Call me girly, but that series rocks. Humor + Reality + Rory Gilmore + Lorelei Gilmore = Very great show. Believe me.

Aubrey and Emil

2006-09-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Life
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Last week of August, right before my brother's birthday, I found out that Aubrey just became Emil's girlfriend. Shit. I hate this, I shouldn't write about this crap, but I have to. I have to let this all out. Or I'll burst at the worst possible time... Anyways, It's all my fault. What? *sigh*

I hate elaborating.

It all started on the summer season. I thought I loved her. Aubrey. Everything went well, I haven't told her anything yet, but I think she already knew by the way I took care of her. All was well, until I noticed a couple of a most peculiar things along the way. The first is that my 1st semester subjects are actually hard. Now, lots of months later, I can really vouch for that. The second is that I don't see Aubrey as a unique person. I noticed that I still love Grace, and I'm seeing her in Aubrey's person. They have almost similar personas, and Aubrey tends to wear clothes that Grace would have also worn. The only difference is that physically, I like Aubrey more. But since when have I care about physical appearances eh?

*sigh*

If I'm going to continue my plans in courting Aubrey, I'll just be courting Grace's Shadow. A cuter shadow, but still, a shadow. So, I did the most logical thing to do: I left. It hurt like hell, but Its better than hurting Aubrey. I kinda like that girl.

Right now, whenever I see Aubrey and Emil, I don't really know what to feel. A part of my heart burns with jealousy, while another part is very happy for aubrey. You know, that she finally found the one for her.

*sigh*. I hate my life. Believe it or not, this also happened with grace. A lot times now. Darn it.

Coming Soon!

2006-09-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

~Ic: Mechanics
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COMING SOON:

Lantis Gaius, Apprentice Wizard, 12 yrs. old
Heinrich Gaius, Going down the dark path, 12 yrs. old
RoseMarie, Mistress of the Black Tower, 30 yrs. old

Character sheets and background! I'll post it here along with the first part of Lantis' story, so stay tuned!

(G/C)-OLD RUSH

2006-09-18T15:12:00.000+08:00

~Ooc: Magic
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Last August 26, we attended the (G/C)-OLD RUSH Tourney at SM Megamall at ortigas. It was a complete letdow though (Suso kaming lahat, so to speak) but I'll write about it anyways. I assumed control of JM's deck after I got a P300 Adarkar Valkyrie from the shop. Here's a quick list:

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23x Plains

4x Leonin Skyhunter
4x Paladin En-Vec
4x White-Shield Crusader
4x Savannah Lion
4x Samurai of the Plae Curtain
3x Jotun Owl Keeper
1x Adarkar Valkyrie
1x Serra Angel

4x Glorius Anthem
3x Shining Shoal
2x Bathe in Light
2x Umezawa's Jitte
1x Wrath of God

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I'll leave the sideboard out. Anyway, my final ranking was somewhere in #80th or somewhere. My standing? 8w-10l. Very Crappy. I owe my wins to Paladin En-Vec though, a very powerful card. It can win games all by itself... Anyways, I learned a valuable lesson there: Never use someone else's deck unless you've playtested it extensively. John Mark (The deck's owner) also used Austin's Grull Beats deck, and although the the deck was above average in power level, We almost ended up in a tie. It's sad. If only Austin is the one who played the Grull deck and John Mark is the one who played the White weenie deck, I have no doubts that at least one of them could have placed somewhere in the winning tables. *sigh* Anyways, past is past. To the next tourney!

Welcome to Incarnum

2006-09-18T04:43:00.000+08:00

:: Entry # 1 :: Introduction ::
~Ooc: Headlines
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Mood: Sleepy
Music: Floods of Tears, by: L'Arc~En~Ciel
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As I have said in my last blog: I'm having a really crappy semester. I can't spare enough time to maintain a templated blogs, so I created this: Dual purpose blogs where I can post ~Ooc (Out of character) or ~Ic (In character) with the help of labels. This is also easier to maintain since the templating is very minimal. Anyways, I'm placing a list of labels below, which may or may not expand... Eh? What? Who am I? Fine. A proper introduction then.

~ Ic

I am Lantis Gaius, Son of RoseMarie, The First Spellwielder. The power of the Incarnum flows through my very veins, for I am one of the few Azunite who roam this realm. I have but one goal - to seek The Woman Who Holds My Heart. I have been travelling throughout countless planes of existences, donning names that suit the many tasks at hand, sifting though every rumor for that elusive kernel of truth. Right now, I am at a loss...but my faith shall never waver: I will hunt her down and take back what's rightfully mine - beware the fools who stand in my way.

~ Ooc

I am Erik Gaius Capistrano, 3rd year computer science student, and I'm really having trouble with my academics. Well, that's that. If you want to learn more about me, click on one of old blogs at my Links list or view my profile at DeviantArt (Also at the links list). That's all, have a good day!

Oh, I almost forgot about the labels list:

~Ooc: Headlines (First post of the day)
~Ooc: Academics (About Letran)
~Ooc: Magic (About Magic:The Gathering CCG)
~Ooc: Literature (Poetry, Prose, or otherwise...)
~Ooc: Life (About MY life)
~Ooc: Tech (Anything computer related)
~Ooc: Misc (Anything else falls here. I hope...)
~Ic: Main (Main storyline)
~Ic: Sub (Subplots)
~Ic: Mechanics (Character sheets, etc...)
~Ic: [Characer Name]'s Journal (1st person narrative)

Well, I guess that's it. Ciao! Oh and remember: Mi Casa Su Casa, always!
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"I'm stupid." ~ Me, Last post from my last blog. ~_~

I N C A R N U M

Lies

From me, To you.

Edmond Dantès Prisoner Number

The Number of Zeroes in an American Decillion

The Number Thirty-Two

The Fourth Lucky Prime

The First Sphenic and Giuga Number

The Sum of ASDF

Number of Convex Uniform Honeycombs

Mage's Dawn

More Magic

Perfect Cube

Gematria of Tetragammaton

Simple is good.

The Usual TCP Port for SMTP

A Song and A Poem

A Self-Dual Convex Regular 4-Polytope

End Transmission Block in ASCII

Me and my Deck

Fate/Stay Night

Secure Shell Protocol Port Number

Weight of your soul*

My Life, My Soul, For the Phoenix.

The Number of First Moves in Chess

The Fourth Alternating Factorial

Shíbā in Chinese

Magician's Jury

Women

The Most Random Number

A Centered Pentagonal Number

The Number of Supersingular Primes

The First Even Nontotient

Number of Nodes in Metatron's Cube

Jupiter's Lysithea

One of My Personal Favorite Numbers...

Desperate

Time Spiral

Joy Blog #01 to #05

The Smallest Noncototient

The Recurring Number at the Feynman Point

The Number of Thurston Model Geometries

The Smallest Happy Number

The First Perfect Number

Reminisce

More Novels to read...

Simple Words Explain So Much

A Purpose-Driven Life

The first Wilson and Safe Prime

Decklists galore...

The first Positive Non-Fibonacci Number

The first Fermat, Mersenne and Lucky Prime.

Juner & Miki

Honey and Clover

Start of all but one of Znám's problems...

Procrastination Sucks.

Gilmore Girls

Aubrey and Emil

Coming Soon!

(G/C)-OLD RUSH

Welcome to Incarnum